Dance of Love

"A man only begins to be a man when he ceases to whine and revile, and commences to search for the hidden justice which regulates his life. And as he adapts his mind to that regulating factor, he ceases to accuse others as the cause of his condition, and builds himself up in strong and noble thoughts; ceases to kick against circumstances, but begins to use them as aids to his more rapid progress, and as a means of discovering the hidden powers and possibilities within himself." -James Allen (As A Man Thinketh, p. 10)

Such a lovely paragraph. This reminds me of a person within my own family. I began reading "As A Man Thinketh" again. The stuff written in that book creates a rhythm in tune with my soul (though it has nothing to do with my own family). When I read that paragraph, I had to tell someone about it, I just could not contain it within me. The only person I knew I could call and share and would appreciate what I read was my friend named Marcus; understanding it in the same level though, I don't know, but at least he would appreciate it - or maybe he would understand it in a deeper level than I would?

Now what is this soul that I speak of? There may be some readers out there who don't believe in the concept of Spirit, of Soul. Spirit and Soul, however, are two different things. Whether you believe it or not will never change the truthfulness of its existence.

• Spirit is that which pierces your heart, like jumping in cold water, body feels a sharp jolt: muscles restrict, bones shrink, mind constricts trying to reprogram itself, and it all happens quickly. However, once heart is pierced by Spirit, instead of cold there is warmth; When the flower feels the warmth of the sun caress its body, it breaks through dark shell and blossom a beautiful Rose - that is the same warmth. That is the same warmth your heart feels, as if the sun itself were touching and caressing your own heart. It stirs you, it moves you, it awakens inside of you something familiar and you want to express...express whatever it was that was shackled, like the Rose in its dark shell.
• Soul is the joining of the Body and Spirit. The two intertwine and a marriage ruptures between two states, Body and Spirit. That warmth extends beyond the heart and restrains your whole Body, then soothes it, calms it, loves it. Then Body trusts fully the Spirit. The two dance like fire and paper, the glow of the Spirit envelops the Body and the Body becomes one with Spirit. A new height is reached, one of supernal nature and of eternal worth, Soul. It's a holy matrimony, one of pure love and essence. It is Godly in its purest form. I love it. Oh how my heart wants it.

That is Soul. That is what I envision to with all my undertakings. It's not just passion I want, it is the whole of my Soul that I want poured into my works. 

Yes, "As A Man Thinketh" contains my love for the attainment of perfection. Am I obsessed with perfection? I don't even know what perfection truly is in this life, but all I want is to understand what I am capable of. All I want is to accomplish my true potential, however that is not just my want for myself, it is what I want for others. I want others to be able to awaken from their prison and WAKE! I want them to find themselves and to rally up their souls to a just cause, a cause that awakens every fiber of their being! All this dross that brings one down, and comforts them there, oh that is not what I want for others. I envision a world where love reigns at its fullest and all perfect potential has been recognized in others. A world of love, a world of peace.

It's amazing what man's mind can do! I love to find people of equal caliber or higher! Those who desire to bring their passion into this world to cause a stir and a change! To create a world of equality into the life of others! I love to see others who are passionate, hear music that is passionate, read art that is passionate. I was introduced to a poet named Rumi and the instant I read one poem from him, I was in love. It was unable to explain how my heart was pierced and my soul awakened! If you have never heard of Rumi, I recommend you read his art works. It lifted my spirit up to a different realm and I didn't want to return back. That is what is special about the Soul. Once you are acquainted with things of the Spirit, you are reaching a higher plane, a higher level of understanding. And the instant you return back from a high level to where you were before-hand, to the awakened Soul, to the enlightened person, you are not able to hold still anymore. You no longer are satisfied but the mundane lifestyle had before. No. You are wanting more. You are a seeker of love now. Your Soul has been awakened and aroused to love. You are in love. You are then in position to not recreate, but return to that same "exalted" state you were in. What was once surreal becomes reality. Reality then is where you seek to return, your life seeks to return.

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Well, I had intended to write about a trip to Arizona to see Radiohead and after looking back at it, it was really funny! Radiohead!! AHHHH!!! Love it! But soul comes first. Reason with the soul. Reason with the soul.

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If you are reading this then that is because you figured out what I did in order to have a blank page. I wanted a long, blank page but if I just pressed enter repeatedly then it would only appear as if I pressed it once followed by my "signature." 


Oh boy! It's early morning! I have a bad habit of sleeping late so that is something I am going to change. Early to bed, early to rise. That is so true when I practiced it long ago. I don't know how people can stay up late. After a period of time where I've been staying up late, it really affects the mind to a degree where it just does not function at its capacity. I don't believe there are exceptions to anybody; it always affects us. Plus, the mind is full of inspiration and ready to receive inspiration when it's early in the morning and how I love that inspiration!


I was looking at prices for sky-diving. It's not a cheap thrill, but man! How I would love to go sky-diving! Ever since a friend planted the idea in high school, it just seems so amazing! To fly through the air...the atmosphere moving around you, the dance of wind and body, penetrating the colloquial sky. The rapture that mesmerizes you, sustains you, pulls you, guides you. Body meets Heaven. 


I had an epiphany on Sunday, March 11, 2012 in the afternoon. It was so subtle, but once the idea grasped me, it worked itself through me. It was as if my eyes were opened. I loved it. In Provo, Utah (go figure)...I would have found myself. It was so simple! I've been taught it for a good portion of my young-adult hood (which by the by, seeing how I'll be 23 in May 2, am I still considered a youth? I believe I am. True adult-hood really is reached until around late 20's, but I could be wrong. Eh, my opinion. But looking at my current generation, many kids my age still seem to be just that, kids. HAHAHAHAHA oh boy I love this world!)


I took a plane to California last month. I didn't realize I was sitting in first-class until I was in the middle of the flight. It was so fancy. I didn't know how to react. I was treated with more respect, but that respect seemed so artificial to me. How come I didn't get that exact same treatment when I'd fly economy? I don't care if money talks, I want others to be treated with that exact same level of hospitality. I told my brother that I didn't like it. He was quick to get on the attack and tell me "fine. Next time you'll be flying coach." Later on I said thank you to him and how appreciative I was for flying First-class (I secretly did enjoy it...how shameful of me). Truth be told, I really didn't enjoy it too much because I felt that I shouldn't deserve, or rather, be entitled to such treatment. It felt as if I was high-class, and it brought shame to me. Maybe it's the opinions of others, as if I'm rolling in money...I hate money, I absolutely detest it (because hate is such a strong word). I would rather be with others who are in Economy class, I feel comfortable there. However, I am planning on flying to Taiwan the second week of April and plan on being there for the minimum of 2 weeks (April 20, Taichung! Oh yeah! Totally going to live that night up with all those foreigners! I mean, it's Taichung! The city is ridiculous! Frankly, all of Asia is ridiculous...and I love it!) and the seats that are only offered for the flight are business-class and first-class, no coach.... Well I know what I said earlier, but I may have to take the offer for Business-class, especially when all I spend will be around $400 round-trip and business class is expensive (last I remember, to Japan it was around $10,000), PLUS! the flight to Asia is a long one, and I know I shouldn't fall asleep while travelling to and from, but the seats.... Nevermind service, the seats! So. Comfy.


Well I end this little random writing that whoever was able to figure this out, bien hecho! The title, "Blank Page" is to signify after an interesting period in my life, a period by which I sought to figure "it" out (you know, IT...the big, heartfelt questions to one's life), after a lot of battling and struggling within, I realized it. A new start. A fresh page. A blank page. I'm not forsaking a past I had, I'm just not letting the past dictate my present to ruin and eradicate a bright future that I am meant to enjoy. That future I so want. I had to plead for this. I have been so grateful for all of it. That spiritual side could never be abandoned. Oh how I'm grateful for the Atonement of Christ. I mean, it's crazy after having studied much about it, I still learn more about it. Man really is nothing. We don't comprehend it. Oh how I needed to grow up. Oh, how I needed it all. Oh, how I loved it all. I want you to know, whoever is reading this, that I love this Church. I know it deep and fully within in my eternal soul that The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is the one and only true Church on the face of the planet. I am not apologetic of that statement. I know it, God knows I know it, and by the power of the Holy Ghost, I know it is true. Christ and His Atonement, it is a perpetual life changer. However many times one wants to think that I just speak in a manner of speech, please don't be passive about this. I am 100% certain of it. You can tear me up and break everything about me, but you will never destroy my undying spirit! No! You will never be able to! I am bound to a God I love. I am in debt to a Savior who ransomed me. If you are not a member, please, ask me a question or even search us up, www.mormon.org. Better yet, meet with missionaries, and please be willing to accept what they have to say. Put aside any doubt you may have and try an experiment. Test it out to see if it is true, and I can promise you if you really intend to know if it is true, you will receive an answer from God, by the power of the Holy Ghost, an answer dedicated to you and meant for you, formed for you. I love you all.


Until next time, hasta proximo, 再見 (although you may get the idea that that means "bye" in Chinese, you split the words down, 再 = again, 見 = see; so, see you again, or see you later).


....dang it was supposed to be hidden...man...I don't even want to try to figure it out...lame....

~Philippe